Four weeks ago today life changed. I don’t have the words to describe the horror of it, or the place that it has left me. I wouldn’t want to, this kind of misery is not a thing to share. Suffice it to say that the Dearly Beloved is no longer here with me and I am broken until we are together again, and begin a new life’s journey together, as we have so many times before.
Our Lovely Daughter is a tower of strength and together we are trying to come to terms with something that we still can’t absorb as real. You live in a kind of altered reality where for whole seconds at a time you forget and then it comes crashing back like a recurring nightmare that you know will last for the rest of your life.
I’m not going to say that normal service will resume in due course – we are striving towards a ‘new normal’ which, in time, will come into being. Who knows what that will be – I don’t and at this moment in time I don’t want to, it will just happen.
Whatever it is, the Dearly Beloved will always be a huge part of it, ever present in our thoughts and our hearts – love you, always and forever